Tuesday, July 03, 2012
I decided the best way to solve my problems was to run away from home. It sounded like a reasonable thing to do: I'd pack a bag, sneak off in the night and then Sung Hyun would wake up and wonder where I was.
It would be then that he'd realize I took his words "leave me alone!" to heart.
The drops that danced down the window sill that night were also running down my cheeks. The thunder heard on the other side of the door was also the sound of my heart aching. I tried to write about it on my blog, like I always do when I feel sad, but nothing came out. I was stuck.
What I realized in this time of need was how generous and grateful people are in my life. Friends who offered advice, family who just listened and people from all over sending positive vibes my way in the form of comment, Facebook messages, or emails. Thank you all.
Sometimes life just sucks. And in my case it was nothing in particular. A misunderstanding with my husband coupled with a bad day was all it took. There will be moments like these in the future when I feel the weight of the world crushing down on me, pushing me a little more than I feel I can take. But when I walk away from these times of uncomfortableness I come out stronger and more determined.
I didn't run away that night.