Monday, June 11, 2012
Apparently it's easy for me to spend A LOT of money on food but I find it quite difficult to spend money on myself for other things. I don't pay a lot for haircuts. I don't spend a lot of money on clothes or shoes. And I don't wear/buy make up or pamper myself with salon services.
Subsequently this lifestyle was good for my bank account but bad for my self esteem.
I grew up with a family who lived a modest life. I didn't see my mom spend a lot of money on things for herself. She prided herself on being able to find deals at discount stores. Why spend $40 on a white shirt from Gap (that doesn't even say gap on the outside) when you can buy the same one at Walmart for $10.
These tendencies have carried over into my adult life. Even though I lean more towards the nurture side in the nature vs. nurture debate, I don't want to place blame on my family for fostering these ideas.
Now that I'm an adult I need to re-learn. I NEED to teach myself that it's okay to pamper myself. I NEED to not feel guilty for doing things for myself.
Take this past weekend for example: I went shopping for an dress for a upcoming formal dinner event with the university president.
I found a cute little blue dress with a black sweater that would look great with heels.
Dress: $159, Sweater: $59
But I just couldn't justify the price so back on the rack it went.
Foolish or not?