Monday, January 09, 2012
Less is MORE
Ever get those days when you want to walk away from your life and go on permanent vacation? For me, that day was yesterday.
Yesterday we bought a condo. We accepted the counter offer and signed on the dotted line. Easiest job in the world for our real estate agent since I went to the open house for the condo myself and got him to take me to the place again with Sung Hyun later that night and put in an offer at 11:30 pm. If being an agent is that easy then I want that job (although I suspect in most cases it doesn't work like this).
Today I started a new job. I have the flu. I didn't get enough sleep last night.
Tonight I have my first grad class. I have a headache and just want to go to bed.
I've considered dropping this grad class because I'm already putting a lot of pressure on myself to do well. I got a 90% in my first class and I want that damn scholarship. So moving into a new place, teaching privates 10+ hours a week, working full-time, then balancing a new full-time job is really too much.
I've also considered dropping all my extra teaching that I've worked hard to build up over the past 1.5 years. Good-bye business.
I've also considered quitting everything and running away 'cuz that's my all or nothing attitude. I seriously want to be a stay-at-home house wife and not cook or clean. Kind of half-truth.
I think when I go so hard there comes a point when I get so exhausted and overwhelmed that the things I was working so hard for no longer matter to me. I've hit a wall. A really big wall and I'd like to just walk away and go on a vacation for an indefinite period of time.
Oh yah, I've got my period and I'm just coming off vacation. There is no such thing as less in my vocabulary. Maybe I need to work on lesser. Or hire my friend Krista to be my life coach/organizer/counsellor. Krista?!