Monday, November 21, 2011
A HUGE THANK YOU TO ALL OF THOSE WHO SUPPORTED ME THROUGH THE UNFORTUNATE SCAM THIS PAST SUMMER.
My friends, family, and co-workers pulled together and last Thursday at my fundraiser I received almost $2000 -- That's enough money to buy one ticket from Regina to Korea. I will put this money into a travel fund and either I will make a trip to visit my Korean mother-in-law or we'll buy a ticket for her to come see us.
Either way, I just want to say THANK-YOU!!!!!!!
I think more times than not I'm writing about my struggles to find balance in my life. I think this is a struggle I will have for the rest of my life-something that I will just have to come to terms with.
While trying to achieve the perfect balance, what may work for one person won't necessarily work for me. Or it may work for one week for me but not the next. That's the struggle for me. It's that I'm trying to strike a perfect balance where I will feel centred, stress free, and like I "have it all together" all the time.
And now I'm starting to realize that it's not going to happen. So while I have to keep in mind that working less and spending more time with my husband is actually a good thing, I also have to know that I'll never be 100% happy or feel grounded 100% of the time. Some days I think "ah ha! I've got it all figured out and I've finally got it" and some days I'm like "what the hell was I thinking?".
And I think the part that I struggle with is that I'm different. I'm trying to be like others in my life or what others expect of me. But in reality, the system I've got works for me. And I'm very happy with this lack of balance. I'm happy to stay up until 4 am working on a university assignment, work hard for an entire week and then crash at 8pm on a Friday. I'm an all or nothing person and I'm okay with that, even if other people think I'm crazy.
People think I'm crazy for marrying someone who doesn't speak the same language as me. People think I'm crazy for living in my parents basement. People think I'm crazy for going to Korea. My life up-to-date is far from conventional so I'm going to stop trying to "fit in" because that's what society deems as "normal".
Fuck normal! I've always been one to bend the rules and challenge the status quo so why should this time be any different?
Thursday, November 17, 2011
There are mice in my office at work. Lots of them! They got into my desk drawer and left a nasty surprise for me to clean up. They have been living in the walls. Two of them crawled into my coworkers computer, got their tale caught in the fan and fried. We smelled them the next morning. Occupational Health and Safety has inspected the office and found mouse faeces and urine all over the office including the books in the resource room. We first found their evidence 2 weeks ago.
I guess it's pretty serious. My coworker mentioned something about hantavirus, which apparently results in a 50% death rate. Ummmmm, yikes!
The health and safety inspector will be meeting with us on Friday and our boss has required us to attend this MANDATORY meeting.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Want to know where the hell I've been?
I've been hiding under these papers. For the past month I have been dedicating EVERY free minute to researching and writing. Most nights I'm able to make it to bed before 2 am. Remember? The stack of papers above is a 2-page research proposal that has been edited, revised, re-printed, re-edited (x 100). Five professors have read it over, twice. It's been to the writing centre 3 times for a professional proof read. Five or so friends, coworkers, and family members have given me feedback on more than one occasion. My dear friend Krista has encouraged me through the entire process. I have put more than 100 hours into 2 pages. I almost gave up on more than 1 occasion. I've been consumed with this project for the last month. My husband has even backed away to allow me space to get it complete. I have had dreams of it. It's on my mind ALL THE TIME. These 2-pages will only count for 10% of the adjudication process (the other: 60% academics & 30% referees).
Tomorrow I will hand it over to my university department. A week later, it will get passed on to an internal committee. If I pass that step, then it goes to an external review panel. The final step is an adjudication process in Ottawa (capital of Canada for those non-Canadian readers). I will find out in May of 2012 if I have prepared a successful application. That's a loooooong time to wait.
I'm nervous as HELL!!!!
Thursday, November 10, 2011
You may remember me RAVING about a unique condo in my city back when I was still living in Korea. No? Then, look here! I really WANTED this condo sooooo badly. I called my mom and was practically begging her to help me out. It was listed at $359,900 and actually sold for $339,900.
Well guess what? It's for sale again. It's a different unit but in the same building. AND I'm still in LOVE.
I'm in LOVE A LOT with THIS place. Seriously I've got such an emotional attachment to it and I have never even stepped inside. It's beyond cool. See for yourself:
It's still too expensive!
List price: $389,900
Sunday, November 06, 2011
Sorry I'm MIA on the blog front. Once my big assignment gets handed in November 17th I will be back with lots to write about.
I was glad to see that I actually lost this week ;)
I wasn't glad to see this when I woke up:
Nor was I happy to find out I have a flat tire ;(
Saturday, November 05, 2011
I have been researching for the past 2 weeks. Most of the time I can make it to bed just before 2 but some nights I'm up until 4 am. The 7 am alarm clock the the 8 hour work day that follows leave me exhausted. The past 2 weeks have been tough, as I fight to push past fatigue several times though out the day.
This research project has consumed my thoughts. I can't sleep because I'm thinking about all the work I have to do. Last week I met with 5 professors in the department to go over what I have created. I am on the 11th revision of this proposal. Today I worked on it from 9 am to 11 pm with a 20 minute supper break. My dear friend Krista has supported me along the way and spent countless hours reading my revisions and listening to my frustrations. She's so supportive and encouraging, I don't know how I will thank her.
I hope my efforts pay off. Only time will tell........