Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Sunday, June 27, 2010

I just MISS

HOME!!!!
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Today I'm feeling blue. depressed. homesick. sad. discouraged. helpless. unmotivated.
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Yet just last night while talking to my mom over the phone for our weekly Sunday chat I told her how much I was enjoying life here in Korea.
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And now it's Monday and I've decided to skip class and sleep in until 11.
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I told Sung Hyun last night that I was ready for a vacation. He asked me where I wanted to go. I told him, "AWAY!" I just want to chill out by myself and not have to worry about the stress of completing my homework on time, the worries that come along with a job, or the expectations of being a wife. In a sense, I feel like I'm failing at them all, just a little. I'm being tugged too many directions and I don't know when I'm going to break.
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I'm having a bad day and want my mom to hug me and tell me everything is going to be alright ;)

Saturday, June 26, 2010

A little SEX

and the CITY!
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Wow, these girls are grand. We got all dolled up on Friday night and treated ourselves to cocktails and a movie (can you guess which one?) It was devine.
And then we stayed out till 3 am enjoying each others company! What a great night with two really great girls ;)

Friday, June 25, 2010

School Field Trip.....

Last semester I didn't make it to the school field trip and I wasn't planning to go this time either but since it was close to my house and I woke up early I thought I would give it a go. We went to Time Square to watch a non-verbal comedic art performance called Chief. And to be honest, it was awful. But like always I had fun with my class. Actually I much prefer the students in my level 1 class but finally after almost a month together we are starting to really get to know one another. And I have to admit this is a really great group of people too. Here are a few random shots of my class: Let's play the 'find my teacher game'.....haha. Okay she's the one in the green shirt. Such a sweetheart!

Some ramblings about studying Korean

Nothing really exciting to be honest!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Thanks and I'm beautiful

Hello everyone.

Thanks for all the encouraging comments. YOU ROCK, each and everyone of you!

Sung Hyun and I had an awesome chat the other night. Actually it started as a fight and then ended up in this really amazing talk about life. Things are difficult for us both right now because we are both mentally and physically exhaused. The only other time I felt this way was when I was doing BRT (basic recruit training, a.k.a. boot camp) in the military. It's rough and our relationship is the first to suffer. Anyways, I could go on but that's another story for another day.

Anyways during that talk Sung Hyun said something really meaningful to me that night. We saw this blind person the other day and Sung Hyun commented on his eyes. So that night when we were sitting outside (arguing) chatting about life he said something along the lines of, 'who cares if you have a nice face or good body and you think you are beautiful. It doesn't matter about that. Don't you know that most beautiful people is so beautiful inside. Remember that blind guy we saw? His eyes were sooooo beautiful. Do you remember? They were so clear and perfect. They were so white. That is beautiful. He was so beautiful, but people think he is so ugly. But I can see into him inside through his eyes. It's the most important in life about inside beauty. Don't you know?'

It got me really thinking about how important it is to be a good person. How important it is not to get tied up in jealousy, wishing I had more. I'm lucky. I (most of the time) sometimes don't realize it. That information wasn't new to me but hearing it from him made me realize that he's right. He's got such a carefree spirit and really need to learn from him.

Then my friend Sarah sent me an email and it ended with this line: "No matter what, you have to learn, you have to be satisfied with who you are; beautiful, smart, amazing, because no matter how much you change, the fancy clothes you wear, or the picture perfect body....it will never be enough until you realize that you were always more than enough and beautiful just the way you are".

And damn, she's right! So for all those of you who are reading this post. Go tell yourself how awesome you are, because you deserve it! And YOU'RE beautiful too!!!!!

Monday, June 21, 2010

Today for a blog post I decided......

.........to close my eyes, and select a random photo to post and write about (because otherwise I would never post such a photo)!


Taken at the beach on our S.E. Asian adventure that I never got around to blogging about. I can't wait for my next travel adventure. Where should I go next? Any suggestions?

Sunday, June 20, 2010

I've got a lot on my plate!

I'm failing miserably on my health plan. Damn, why do I always self-sabotague when it comes to eating right. I'm been making a lot of good choices over the past month. I've been packing my lunch almost everyday and eating it on the go.

I think I don't do well with healthy eating when I'm under pressure. I've got a lot on my plate at the moment (literally too, I guess)! I'M STRESSED!!!! I know that's no excuse for improper eating habits but it's times like these that make me cave and order a large plate of cheesy fries at Outback like I did last night. And then it's usually one bad day that spirals into two then three, well then you get the point.

I've got to give myself credit though for being honest and sharing this. I don't dare show you the bikini start photos (do I?) - trust me, you don't wanna see 'em!!

But now it's time for me to pick myself back up and keep on truckin'~!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

Hi Dad! Just wanted to wish you a happy fathers day! I hope you do something special today. If it's raining sit outside and think of me. Or better yet, make some popcorn and spill it on the floor! (hehe). Thanks for teaching me some very important life lessons. Any time you want me back, Sung Hyun will happily trade me in for the ducks in return. Can't wait to see you when I get back ;)

LOVE YOU AND LIKE YOU.................nose rubs!!!

Family!

I LOVE MY KOREAN FAMILY. I don't talk about them often on this blog but this post is dedicated to them!
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There are like 20+ people in my immediate family. Sung Hyun has 5 sisters (all older) and a neice that's nearer to him in age (4 years apart) then the age separation difference between him and his youngest sister (I think - can't ask him to confirm since he's sleeping at the moment). I think after all that trying Sung Hyun's mom finally quit after getting her son. Sons are so important in this culture. She actually had 2 more sons before Sung Hyun, but they died shortly after birth, making that a grand total of 8 children that she gave birth to in her own home. None of them, including Sung Hyun, were born in a hospital.
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I, on the other had, come from a very small home. Actually the size of our home is quite large but there's only 4 of us in our immediate family. And I've only got 2 cousins from my dad's side. They're both boys. My grandma used to always say I was her favourite grand daughter -- well no wonder, I was the only one.
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Last weekend, we rented a pension in the country side and got decked out in our couple shirts. Yes, each family had matching shirts (and pants) and we proudly displayed them as we cheered on the Korean soccer team during their first match in the World Cup.
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In no particular order of importance, here are some pictures of the weekend getaway with the fam (minus one sister + husband & children):

Friday, June 18, 2010

Perspective

Let me share with you a little story that I received from a dear friend the other day via email:
One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the express purpose of showing him how poor people lived.
They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.
On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, 'how was the trip?'
'It was great, Dad'.
'Did you see how poor people live?' the father asked.
'Oh yeah', said the son.
'So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?' asked the father.
The son answered:
'I saw that we have one dog and they had four.
We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end.
We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the starts at night.
Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.
We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight.
We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.
We buy our food, but they grow theirs.
We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them'.
The boy's father was speechless.
Then his son added, 'thanks Dad, for showing me how poor we are'.
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Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happend if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about what we don't have.
APPRECIATE EVERY SINGLE THINK YOU HAVE!!!! LIFE IS TOO SHORT AND FRIEND ARE TOO FEW!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

I'm crazy!

I guess I under estimated the intensity of the second level language course at Sogang. Truthfully speaking I'm probably in way over my head. I feel like I'm drowning in class. I wish I could quit my jobs to concentrate fully on this course but I know that wouldn't make sense financially. I'm the only student in my class who has a job. Everyone else is just a student. They think I'm crazy for working.

Even though I only work about 10 hours a week (give and take, usually more like 15), I'm feeling the pressure. When I breakdown my schedule it doesn't look like I have a lot on the go but in actuality I think most of my time is spent travelling. Actually I spend about 4 hours a day travelling to and from school/ work/ work/ work. I only teach an hour here and there but then when you add up the time walking from home to the bus stop, the bus to the subway, the ride on the subway then another walk to another bus station and then another 15 minute walk to work, it adds up. I'm at school from 9-1 (I leave my house at 7:30) and then at work/ travelling between jobs from 2-8. That means I get home around 9. Take a shower, eat dinner, pack my lunch for the next day and it's pushing 10. I get 2 hours of good Korean studying in at night from 10-12 (apart from the time I'm attempting to study on the subway), but by that time I'm exhausted and I find it hard to concentrate. In those 2 hours I never complete my homework. I estimate there's about 3+ hours of homework a day, not including the time it takes to memorize the 40+ new vocabulary words (minimum) we receive each day. I'm behind on my workbook by 4 chapters and that was due on Monday. I've been in the class for 10 days only. We are already half way through the first book (2A). It's crazy!!!!

It's even crazier that I signed up to do this. I can't back out now (I don't want to), so I'm going to have to devise a better plan to help me in the next month to come because I'll burn out if I don't. It's going to be a rough go for the next little while in the mean time.

Venting done!

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Currency coverter!

Every week or so I check the exchange rate. And I always hope that it will magically change overnight so that I can send money home. I've been holding out for the right time, but learned the hard way, when the market crashed after the North Korean fiasco, that there never really is a right time. I'm wondering if I should leave it in Korea until things get a little bigger. If I would have sent the money home 2 months ago, I would have made about $2000 more than if I send it today. I don't know that much about markets or money (just how to save) so I'm quite clueless in this category. Anyone out there able to offer me some advice? Should it stay or should it go?

THANK YOU!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

This is pretty cool!

Hello y'all! So my diet diary stopped for two days since my computer broke and had to be repaired. I took pictures of everything and ate the same as I did during the week. I've got 20 food pics on my camera and didn't keep track of what time I ate what so I'm just not going to post them.

Korean class is going well. Shit, actually it's pretty hard. We are only in the first week and learning so much. Already on chapter 3 and I justed started 1 week ago. Today I learned 3 new grammar patterns and I've got about 50 new vocab words to learn each day. It's tough but good at the same time, if that makes sense.

At the Blue House today one of my students gave me a present. I helped him with some voice recording and speech writing for the G20 summit. It reminded me of my elementary school years when I participated in the Optimist Oratorical Speech Contest and placed 2nd both times, losing the $1500 scholarship to the same person (that was a lot of money in grade 8). I had a good laugh over the topic title for this year: "Cyber Communication: progress or problem" (sometimes God is too funny). Helping prep for the speech made me miss speaking in front of crowds. I love the rush that comes from that. It's probably why I like working at the Blue House so much. It's certainly challenging but I walk out of there on such a high. Anyways today my student came to class and surprised me with a box. He thanked me for my hard work and said he got promoted. Awesome for him!

On the cover: "Office of the President"

Opened the box to find some cups and saucers made from Bone China with the picture of the Blue House printed on the surface. Bone China? I was surprised to read on the internet that it's more expensive that other china due to the labour process. Hummmm interesting, now I've got to find a use for it since I've got no room in this apartment to display it!

"Pay people enough to take the issue of money off the table" LOVE IT!!! My friend Ursula found this and thought of me. How interesting considering the recent comments on my site about money:

T.G.I.F!!!! Can't wait for the weekend. Btw, World Cup match on Saturday for those of you in Korea!!!! 대한민국!!!!!

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

FOOD FOR THOUGHT:

Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing. Helen Keller

Here's some thoughts on the job that I didn't accept. Thanks to all those who had something to say.



I meant to say that since I'm a female, white, F-2 visa holder I don't need to worry about being jobless. I'm lucky to have options. I also forgot to mention that it's 50,000W minus taxes (granted I only pay 4%)

And sorry it cut out. Here's round two if you so desire:



And I switched my Korean class so I'm studying one class with a teacher from last semester. She was my favorite. I'm excited I'm in her class ;) Okay time to stop procrastinating and get on with the homework!

Monday, June 07, 2010

Day 8 - June 7th

11:30 - 1 tbsp peanut butter 1/2 sandwich
12:30 - orange
2:00 - 4 egg white, 1/3 c. blueberryy, 1/3 c. oatmeal pancake - idea from Amy
3:30 - 1 apple
4:30 - spinach, water, banana shake
5:30 - walnuts + dried cranberries + soy milk

45 minutes of yoga

8 - chicken breast + tomato
30 minute rollerblade
10:30 - 1/2 red pepper
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Anyone think I'm eating too many nuts? I certainly crave them a lot.

Sunday, June 06, 2010

I wonder if I made the RIGHT choice......

On Thursday of last week I started school. I'm studying Korean again at Sogang for those of you who don't follow. On Friday of last week I went for a job interview. The interview was with a law firm here in Seoul. It was a sweet gig that would have boosted my monthly salary to $7000 for a measly 27 teaching hours a week (18 with the new job, and the current 9 I'm working now). I did well at the interview even though it was intense. Six candidates were interviewed. I found out today (Sunday) that I got the job. It's Monday, Wednesday and Friday from 9:30-3:30.

So it's either the job or the Korean class. If I could do them both at the same time, I would. I can't switch to the part-time Korean evening program because I don't fit into any level.

The same day of the interview we received Sung Hyun's passport from the Canadian Embassy with his visa in it. He didn't care to hear about my interview because he was just so darn excited about being able to go to Canada. While at dinner he kept saying "let's go". I replied with, "I'm not finished eating". To which he said "to Canada, I mean". Anytime now, we can leave.

If I work this job for 6 months I would be able to easily save and send home $40 000 Canadian.

I said NO to the job.

THIS time money doesn't win.

Day 7 - June 6

11:30 - homemade apple cinnamon oatmeal with a sprinkle of pecans
12:30 - watermelon
2:00 - sweet potatoe + 10 almonds
2:30 - 6 kimchi dumplings with soysauce, radish + more kimchi
1.5 hour rollerblade with hubby
4 - 1 red pepper
6 - 1/2 banana + small bowl of pistachios
6:30 - salmon + asparagus + 1/2 red pepper (uncooked)8:30 - berry yogurt + mango10 - walnuts and dried cranberries