Sunday, June 27, 2010
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Thanks for all the encouraging comments. YOU ROCK, each and everyone of you!
Sung Hyun and I had an awesome chat the other night. Actually it started as a fight and then ended up in this really amazing talk about life. Things are difficult for us both right now because we are both mentally and physically exhaused. The only other time I felt this way was when I was doing BRT (basic recruit training, a.k.a. boot camp) in the military. It's rough and our relationship is the first to suffer. Anyways, I could go on but that's another story for another day.
Anyways during that talk Sung Hyun said something really meaningful to me that night. We saw this blind person the other day and Sung Hyun commented on his eyes. So that night when we were sitting outside (arguing) chatting about life he said something along the lines of, 'who cares if you have a nice face or good body and you think you are beautiful. It doesn't matter about that. Don't you know that most beautiful people is so beautiful inside. Remember that blind guy we saw? His eyes were sooooo beautiful. Do you remember? They were so clear and perfect. They were so white. That is beautiful. He was so beautiful, but people think he is so ugly. But I can see into him inside through his eyes. It's the most important in life about inside beauty. Don't you know?'
It got me really thinking about how important it is to be a good person. How important it is not to get tied up in jealousy, wishing I had more. I'm lucky. I (most of the time) sometimes don't realize it. That information wasn't new to me but hearing it from him made me realize that he's right. He's got such a carefree spirit and really need to learn from him.
Then my friend Sarah sent me an email and it ended with this line: "No matter what, you have to learn, you have to be satisfied with who you are; beautiful, smart, amazing, because no matter how much you change, the fancy clothes you wear, or the picture perfect body....it will never be enough until you realize that you were always more than enough and beautiful just the way you are".
And damn, she's right! So for all those of you who are reading this post. Go tell yourself how awesome you are, because you deserve it! And YOU'RE beautiful too!!!!!
Monday, June 21, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
I think I don't do well with healthy eating when I'm under pressure. I've got a lot on my plate at the moment (literally too, I guess)! I'M STRESSED!!!! I know that's no excuse for improper eating habits but it's times like these that make me cave and order a large plate of cheesy fries at Outback like I did last night. And then it's usually one bad day that spirals into two then three, well then you get the point.
I've got to give myself credit though for being honest and sharing this. I don't dare show you the bikini start photos (do I?) - trust me, you don't wanna see 'em!!
But now it's time for me to pick myself back up and keep on truckin'~!
Friday, June 18, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Even though I only work about 10 hours a week (give and take, usually more like 15), I'm feeling the pressure. When I breakdown my schedule it doesn't look like I have a lot on the go but in actuality I think most of my time is spent travelling. Actually I spend about 4 hours a day travelling to and from school/ work/ work/ work. I only teach an hour here and there but then when you add up the time walking from home to the bus stop, the bus to the subway, the ride on the subway then another walk to another bus station and then another 15 minute walk to work, it adds up. I'm at school from 9-1 (I leave my house at 7:30) and then at work/ travelling between jobs from 2-8. That means I get home around 9. Take a shower, eat dinner, pack my lunch for the next day and it's pushing 10. I get 2 hours of good Korean studying in at night from 10-12 (apart from the time I'm attempting to study on the subway), but by that time I'm exhausted and I find it hard to concentrate. In those 2 hours I never complete my homework. I estimate there's about 3+ hours of homework a day, not including the time it takes to memorize the 40+ new vocabulary words (minimum) we receive each day. I'm behind on my workbook by 4 chapters and that was due on Monday. I've been in the class for 10 days only. We are already half way through the first book (2A). It's crazy!!!!
It's even crazier that I signed up to do this. I can't back out now (I don't want to), so I'm going to have to devise a better plan to help me in the next month to come because I'll burn out if I don't. It's going to be a rough go for the next little while in the mean time.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Korean class is going well. Shit, actually it's pretty hard. We are only in the first week and learning so much. Already on chapter 3 and I justed started 1 week ago. Today I learned 3 new grammar patterns and I've got about 50 new vocab words to learn each day. It's tough but good at the same time, if that makes sense.
At the Blue House today one of my students gave me a present. I helped him with some voice recording and speech writing for the G20 summit. It reminded me of my elementary school years when I participated in the Optimist Oratorical Speech Contest and placed 2nd both times, losing the $1500 scholarship to the same person (that was a lot of money in grade 8). I had a good laugh over the topic title for this year: "Cyber Communication: progress or problem" (sometimes God is too funny). Helping prep for the speech made me miss speaking in front of crowds. I love the rush that comes from that. It's probably why I like working at the Blue House so much. It's certainly challenging but I walk out of there on such a high. Anyways today my student came to class and surprised me with a box. He thanked me for my hard work and said he got promoted. Awesome for him!
Opened the box to find some cups and saucers made from Bone China with the picture of the Blue House printed on the surface. Bone China? I was surprised to read on the internet that it's more expensive that other china due to the labour process. Hummmm interesting, now I've got to find a use for it since I've got no room in this apartment to display it!
"Pay people enough to take the issue of money off the table" LOVE IT!!! My friend Ursula found this and thought of me. How interesting considering the recent comments on my site about money:
T.G.I.F!!!! Can't wait for the weekend. Btw, World Cup match on Saturday for those of you in Korea!!!! 대한민국!!!!!
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
Here's some thoughts on the job that I didn't accept. Thanks to all those who had something to say.
I meant to say that since I'm a female, white, F-2 visa holder I don't need to worry about being jobless. I'm lucky to have options. I also forgot to mention that it's 50,000W minus taxes (granted I only pay 4%)
And sorry it cut out. Here's round two if you so desire:
And I switched my Korean class so I'm studying one class with a teacher from last semester. She was my favorite. I'm excited I'm in her class ;) Okay time to stop procrastinating and get on with the homework!
Monday, June 07, 2010
Sunday, June 06, 2010
So it's either the job or the Korean class. If I could do them both at the same time, I would. I can't switch to the part-time Korean evening program because I don't fit into any level.
The same day of the interview we received Sung Hyun's passport from the Canadian Embassy with his visa in it. He didn't care to hear about my interview because he was just so darn excited about being able to go to Canada. While at dinner he kept saying "let's go". I replied with, "I'm not finished eating". To which he said "to Canada, I mean". Anytime now, we can leave.
If I work this job for 6 months I would be able to easily save and send home $40 000 Canadian.
I said NO to the job.
THIS time money doesn't win.
12:30 - watermelon
2:00 - sweet potatoe + 10 almonds