I've done a bit of work at my mom's office but my days usually consist of getting up at 2 pm. then relaxing on the couch with a book. And you know what? I hate reading, so something MUST be wrong........but I always turn on my computer (which is a piece of crap) and search through my regular sites for an hour or so. And then continually do so throughout the day.
After I eat breakfast I watch some Dr. Phil (not that I really like it, just that it's addicting and that's what's on tv). Then I flip to the judge shows and watch them till my mom comes home at 4:30 pm and she asks me what I've done all day to which I reply 'exactly this'. She's worked a whole 8 hours and I've only just begun my day.
I eat supper, which feels more like lunch and chill with the fam. My mom usually passes out on the couch at 8:30 because she's so tired and if she makes it to 9 then we're lucky.
And did I mention that I miss Sung Hyun. I'm okay during the day but at night it's the worst. He's super busy in Korea and doesn't call me. Well that's not true, he does call when he has time, but we never talk long enough and he never calls often enough. I feel like he's forgotten all about me and that I'm the only one going through this. I KNOW he's busy and I KNOW he's studying for ME, but I just need to feel loved. And right now I'm not.
So I told him about this. And he doesn't really think it's that big of a deal. I called him on his one day off and was expecting to talk with him for at least 1 hour. But he was sleeping when I called (3 pm Korean time) and we only chatted for a bit till my card ran out and he said that he'd call me back tomorrow, which meant Monday (his time), which meant it would be on his lunch hour, which meant we would only talk for 10 minutes.
Maybe I'm being too greedy and disrespectful of him. But this is how I feel and I've tried to ignore my feelings and do other things to get my mind off him. But to no avail, every night I am left wondering if I'll get the change to talk with him.
I don't know what to do. I got mad at him and now he's upset at me.
So now we've made phone dates. I'll get to talk to him every Tuesday and Thursday night for 10 minutes and again on Saturday night for (hopefully) longer.
I'm going to the States for 3 days to do some shopping with my mom. This distraction is exactly what I need.
Sorry for the rant...........